heartbreaker than the heartbroken

 “I hope that some day, you find an amazing girl. The kind of girl who means everything to you and makes you want to spend every moment of your time with her. The kind of girl who keeps you up at night, just thinking about her beautiful smile, and when you finally fall asleep, she’s all you dream about. I hope she’s the first thing to cross your mind when you wake up in the morning. I hope she changes you in a way you could never understand, yet you know it`s for the better. I hope she’s the kind of girl you would die for. The kind of girl who could make you cry, even though you’d never admit it. The kind of girl who makes you want to go out and do something special, something that means everything to the both of you. The kind of girl you can have silly fights with, then kiss and make up and hold her in your arms like you`re falling in love all over again. I hope you make memories with her you never forget. I hope she’s your world, and what you have with her is nothing less than perfection. And I hope that one day, you lose her. I hope you mess up and as hard as you try to keep her there with you, she slips through the cracks of your broken heart. I hope it destroys you, because you realize you’ve lost the person you once called your everything. I hope you see every moment you spent together spin away down the drain like it was waiting to happen. I hope you stay up at night because she’s on your mind and when you fall asleep, she haunts your dreams. I hope her beautiful smile stays pressed in your mind like a scar that won’t fade away. I hope you realize that you’re a new person because of her, I hope your new self feels incomplete without her and you miss the old you. The one that was okay with being alone, because you’d rather be the heartbreaker than the heartbroken."

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HOROSCOPE

CAPRICORN - The Passionate Lover
Love to bust. Nice. Sassy. Intelligent. Sexy. Grouchy at times and annoying to some. Lazy and love to take it easy. But when they find a job or something they like to do they put their all into it. Proud, understanding and sweet.

Irresistible. Loves being in long relationships. Great talker. Always gets what he or she wants. Cool. Loves to win against other signs especially Gemini’s in sports. Likes to cook but would rather go out to eat at good restaurants.
Extremely fun. Loves to joke. 

(December 27, 1991)

Don't Come Back

Her biggest fear was that one day he would say ‘I want you back.’ She would break down in tears trying to think of a way to explain she is still too heartbroken from the last time and she’s still not ready to lose everything again.

So that’s the best advice that I could give: is just to keep moving forward and don’t give a shit on the past and in what anybody thinks, you know. Just keep moving forward and do what you have to do for you. Everyone’s heartbroken nowadays. But I mean, we all just have to move on. What’s the point of reminiscing when you know the person is no longer worth while; when they’re no longer who they used to be? When their heart is somewhere else? Do you think they still care for you, or are still thinking about you? Because frankly, they don’t.

you just let me go and do nothing at all

Go after her, don't sit there and wait for her to call, go after her because that's what you should do if you love someone, don't wait for them to give you a sign cause it might never come, don't let people happen to you, don't let me happen to you, or her, she's not a f*cking television show or tornado. There are people I might have loved had they gotten on my place or run down the street after me or called me up drunk at four in the morning just to tell me right now and because they can not regret this and I always thought I'd be the only one doing crazy things for those people who would never give enough of a fuck to do it back or to act like idiots or be entirely vulnerable and honest and making someone fall in love with you is easy and flying 3000 miles in four days notice because you can't just sit and do nothing and breathe into telephones is not everyones idea of love but it is the way i can recognize it because that is what I do, go scream it and be with her in meaningful ways because that is reality, that is beautiful, and that is generous and THAT IS WHAT LOVING SOMEONE IS, that is raw and that is unguarded, and that is all that is worth anything, really.

But then, what you have done. You just let me go and do nothing at all. Where are those sweet promises, "I wont live you, I'll fight for my love for you, I will always be by you side and I promise I wont hurt you and never let the tears run down from your pretty eyes" and others. You broke me into pieces, and leave me scattered on the floor. Now I don't know where should I start to fix this puzzle. Do I need to ask help from him? or do it by my self? Or should I let time to heal this pain.

It's been awhile now, but still I can't forget the pain and I don't know if this cut inside of my heart really starts to heal.