you just let me go and do nothing at all

Go after her, don't sit there and wait for her to call, go after her because that's what you should do if you love someone, don't wait for them to give you a sign cause it might never come, don't let people happen to you, don't let me happen to you, or her, she's not a f*cking television show or tornado. There are people I might have loved had they gotten on my place or run down the street after me or called me up drunk at four in the morning just to tell me right now and because they can not regret this and I always thought I'd be the only one doing crazy things for those people who would never give enough of a fuck to do it back or to act like idiots or be entirely vulnerable and honest and making someone fall in love with you is easy and flying 3000 miles in four days notice because you can't just sit and do nothing and breathe into telephones is not everyones idea of love but it is the way i can recognize it because that is what I do, go scream it and be with her in meaningful ways because that is reality, that is beautiful, and that is generous and THAT IS WHAT LOVING SOMEONE IS, that is raw and that is unguarded, and that is all that is worth anything, really.

But then, what you have done. You just let me go and do nothing at all. Where are those sweet promises, "I wont live you, I'll fight for my love for you, I will always be by you side and I promise I wont hurt you and never let the tears run down from your pretty eyes" and others. You broke me into pieces, and leave me scattered on the floor. Now I don't know where should I start to fix this puzzle. Do I need to ask help from him? or do it by my self? Or should I let time to heal this pain.

It's been awhile now, but still I can't forget the pain and I don't know if this cut inside of my heart really starts to heal.